Generational Milestones

For much of my life, we've been looking for generational milestones, saying, "Is this it?  Is this our Pearl Harbor moment?  The where were you when Kennedy was shot moment?"  Maybe instead of the royal "we," I should speak only for myself.  Is it because I read voraciously as a child?  Is it because I overheard grown ups talking, as bookish children often do?

I knew early on that September 11, 2001 was this kind of milestone, the event that cracks the world into "before" and "after."  Even today, almost 25 years later, I can still recall almost every minute of that day, and I do mean this literally.

This morning I've been listening to various podcasts about Iran.  I am wondering if generations after us will see the 1979 take over of the U.S. Embassy in Iran as a generational marker.  I remember that the television was on in the living room of the house on the Outer Banks where my family was having a week-end get away with another family.  There was a "breaking news" interruption, and my dad moved closer to the T.V.  He recognized the serious nature of events, but I think we all thought it would be settled quickly.

I am thinking about historical regimes, how we see them differently now than their citizens might have seen them.  Of course, it's much more complicated the further back we go.  Citizens of Rome would not have had the kind of daily/hourly news updates that we have now.

I'm not naive--I do realize that the news updates that we get aren't always reliable.  In the days of escalation to the Iraq war, I remember Colin Powell's address to the U.N., and I assumed he was telling the truth.  He might have left out classified information, sure, but of course we could trust the information that we got in that kind of speech.

I do think that people like Colin Powell were telling the truth as they knew it at the time.  We may not see it as true now, with more than 20 years of follow up information.  This time, because I've heard so many different strands of information, some of which seems to contradict each other, I'm less inclined to think I'm hearing the truth.  

What's more accurate probably:  the truth will shift, and right now, no one is sure what is true, with the possible exception of some top level people who have access to some top level classified documents--and even those are subject to interpretation (I'm thinking of satellite data and intelligence reports).

I am looking at the full moon outside of my writing window and reflecting on the fact that the same moon has shown down us throughout all of human history, as we go back and forth, making the same mistakes over and over again, stumbling over milestones that we may not even recognize as milestones until generations later.

Poetry and Current Events

Here we are, day five of the Iran war--or is it year 46, if we date it to the 1979 take-over of the embassy?  Or earlier, given our interactions in that country during the years of the Shaw.  

Yesterday on my way home, I noticed that gas was at $2.99 a gallon, up from $2.49 a gallon in the morning when I left.  On some level, I shouldn't have been surprised.  Long ago, when the Kuwait interaction went from Desert Shield to Desert Storm, I went right to the gas station, but it was much longer before gas prices rose.  That's my memory, although I wasn't commuting at the time, so I might not have been as focused on gas prices.  I was a poor grad student, so I might have noticed.

Back then, my brain was focused on the war.  I wrote poems about people in war zones, a poem that contrasted me washing dishes in solitude to someone trying to keep body and soul together in a bomb shelter.  They weren't good poems, but I mention it because decades later, I'm able to move throughout the day without my brain returning to the drum beat of war.

That's not to say that I've ignored the issue, just that I've gotten more skilled at compartmentalizing it all.  

Part of me also assumes that people in charge have information that I don't.  This Washington Post article by Jim Geraghty argues that most presidents become war hawks as they see top secret briefings during their tenure, and that makes sense to me.  This New York Times article by Brett Stephens makes a case for military action against Iran.

This is not to say that I'm just fine with these military actions.  I'm always wary, because I've had a lifetime of hearing leaders tell us that we can do a limited intervention, and these things almost always spiral out of control and have all sorts of unintended consequences.  I can read, and I know that throughout history, military actions almost always spiral out of control and have all sorts of unintended consequences.

I've been thinking about my undergraduate days, when my favorite Literature professor told us that poems that engaged specific current events were never any good.  I argued fiercely with her; I thought that poetry needed to be involved in the real world.  I still believe that, although right now, I'm not producing any poems, of any quality, that are about this war.  Similarly, I haven't written poems about Gaza or Ukraine (maybe obliquely?) or any other hot spot.

Some part of me thinks that 500 years from now, if humans survive, people will look at us and marvel that we started these wars and refused to focus on the climate disasters bearing down on us--and I have written about that historic event from a variety of angles.

But like so many humans through history, I continue moving through my day, feeling powerless, even if I knew what I thought should happen, and I don't.  I continue moving through my days, feeling fortunate to be far away from the theatre of war and feeling guilty about my good fortune.  I move throughout my days, documenting regular people approaches to current events, even if I'm not writing poems about those current events.

Eclipses and Other Portents

Later this morning, we'll go vote in the primary.  We don't live in Texas, so our primary isn't as interesting.  But it may have an impact on the Senate race in November.  

We'd vote regardless.  In North Carolina, we're registered as independents which means we can vote in either the Democratic primary or the Republican primary, but not both.  Two years ago, I voted in the Republican primary because I wanted Nikki Haley to win.  Today I'm voting in the Democratic primary because I want Roy Cooper, our former governor, to be the candidate in November. 

If we had voted early, we'd have done it at the public library.  Today we'll go to the local Lutheran church, the one where I go on Wednesdays to quilt when I'm not teaching.  I'm glad that the polling place is easy for me, even as I wonder how it came to be the polling place.  My younger self would have done some talking about separation of church and state.  My older self is happy to see church buildings used for the good of the community.

This morning's post will be shorter than usual, not because I'm headed off to vote, but because I'm going on an early morning walk.  I could wait; it's the one weekday where I don't need to be on the road to Spartanburg before 7:30.  But there's an eclipse happening, and although it's cloudy, I'll go out, just on the off chance that the clouds clear.

The moon will look red, and ancient people would have seen the blood moon as a portent.  With a war in the Middle East, we have no shortage of portents.  Still I will vote, and I will look at the sky, and I will hope to be amazed in a good way, not a horror-filled way.

No AWP For Me

Various social platforms (primarily Facebook for me) have begun to fill with writers posting their AWP schedules.  My grad school friend and I briefly thought about going.  After all, it's in Baltimore, within driving distance, which it rarely is.  We both have family in the area, although we would have stayed in the conference hotel.

I decided early that I couldn't do it this year.  Some years, AWP is the same year as spring break, when I'm working at places that have a spring break, and that confluence makes the whole thing easier.  Some years, AWP is nowhere near spring break, and that, too, makes the whole thing easier.

This year, AWP is right before my spring break in a March that is very busy even before adding a big conference.  So I decided not to go.

Some years I feel like I'm missing out, and now, it's been so many years since I attended that if I could get there, it might not feel like a repeat of past years in terms of what I learn/hear.  And now, I'm teaching a lot of creative writing courses, which has not been the case in the past.

Next year, I might see if I can get some travel money from Spartanburg Methodist College.  But this year, I'm glad not to be travelling this week.  The rest of March will have plenty of travel, lots of family reconnecting, and a quilt retreat near the end.  That's almost more than I can handle, so I'm glad not to be adding AWP on top of it all.

Being Born Again: Sermon Revisions in the Midst of News Reports

In later years, I may wonder why I'm not writing more about the events of yesterday:  bombs on Iran and Ayatollah Khamenei dead.  Maybe later readers will wonder why I didn't analyze Trump's decision to go ahead without consulting Congress or maybe they will have knowledge I don't.  I will say that U.S. presidents have been moving forward with war plans, asking for forgiveness rather than permission, for my whole life regardless of political persuasions.  

I didn't pay close attention to the news yesterday.  I was working on both taxes and my sermon.  I didn't even hear about the death of Khamenei until evening.  At the end of the day, I wrote this Facebook post:  "Doing some sermon revisions, thinking about Nicodemus who comes to Jesus, two men who likely see the world very differently but take the time to talk. I'm thinking about how Nicodemus is perplexed in the third chapter of John (tomorrow's reading) but by the end of the Gospel of John, he's buying an astonishing amount of burial spices for Jesus, a public declaration of Jesus' importance. I'm thinking and revising and flipping to news reports and my sermon seems even more relevant, about the necessity of talking and understanding and being born again for new possibilities in this life."

In a week of good time management, I have my sermon written before Saturday, and my spouse offers suggestions.  This week, I got my sermon draft done by Thursday, and I was proud of that.  Yesterday, as we were going over his notes, I realized that I had printed out not the sermon for today, but one for two years ago.

In a way, I was relieved.  The fact that the sermon was so unfamiliar just two days after I had written it had me worried before I checked the date on the sermon.  In a way, no harm done.  I made the discovery while my spouse still had time to read the correct sermon yesterday, and I had time to make the sermon stronger.  My spouse wasn't upset that he read two sermons this week.

And yet, it reminds me that although I may think I have all the parts of my life moving smoothly, there are some indications that it may be more tenuous than I want to think.  I thought of this again in the afternoon, as the phone rang, and I realized that the afternoon was later than I thought, and I hadn't called my parents, as we had arranged on Friday.  Again, no harm done, except . . .   I thought of this idea again as afternoon faded into dusk, as we looked in the recycling bin for the draft of the correct sermon with my spouse's notes on it.

It was a productive day, despite the mishaps.  I got the first draft of our taxes done, and now we have decisions to make about how to pay them.  Happily, we have the resources.  I got the finished draft of my sermon done.  Now let me get ready to preach and preside at Faith Lutheran in Bristol, Tennessee--worship starts at 10 a.m., and all are welcome.

The First Fish Fry of the Season

Yesterday afternoon, I finished teaching, drove from Spartanburg to Arden, where I live, and then, after changing clothes, drove from Arden to Bristol, Tennessee, where I am a part-time minister at Faith Lutheran.  Last night was the first of four spring fish fry events.

People pay $10 for a wonderful plate of food:  fish (fried or baked), mac-and-cheese, pierogies and caramelized onions, cole slaw, green beans, rolls, and an amazing assortment of desserts and drinks.  I use the word amazing because I know how many members we have and how many desserts we offer, and that means people are making a lot of dessert.

All of the money goes to local charities, primarily the local ones that deal with hunger.  But people come for the food.  That's what I thought until last night.

We arrived at 4:45, and the event was supposed to start at 5.  When we got there, people were already there, waiting for food.  Many of the people who came were so excited to be there.  They love the food, but more than that, they love the chance to sit and reconnect with neighbors from across the community (and a few of them are reconnecting with literal neighbors).

We had a steady stream of people coming and going, with almost every place in the smallish fellowship hall occupied for the first 80 minutes of the event.  We ran out of cole slaw, but we didn't run out of desserts.  

I thought about how past Kristin would have viewed this event.  She would have wondered why we were having this event, when so many people who come already have a church home.  She would have looked at the amazing amount of work that it takes to put on this event, and she would have suggested that we donate a chunk of money instead of buying the food and cooking it and selling plates.

But current Kristin has a glimmer of a different way of thinking about this.  People are hungry for community.  They want to have a chance to reconnect with people who live in the same geographical area.  They care less about people's religious or political beliefs.

I realize that what I observed last night may be more true in small towns than in big urban centers.  But I suspect that even in the big cities, people are longing for the kind of connection that a fish fry event can give them.

Of Lab Results and Lectures

I didn't write yesterday because I got good lab results and wanted to process a bit in my offline journal--and then it was time for Lutheran Confessions class.  Let me record some thoughts here:

--My lab results show that almost all of my numbers are in a good range.  It's my vitamin D that is a bit low, which is an easy fix.  The results that make me most happy are my liver numbers, which had been drifting up.  I have been very focused in the last year on reducing alcohol intake, and for the last 8 weeks, since Jan. 2, I have had no alcohol.  And this blood work has my liver numbers back down, back in the healthy range.  I am entering the time of life where it seems that no one is getting good medical news, so let me be happy while I can be.

--My Lutheran Confessions class continues to be great.  I am so impressed with how my professor can talk about the Reformation for hours, making it interesting, apparently without much in the way of notes.  There's a PowerPoint, but he's amazing at using the PowerPoint as it should be, as a scaffolding, not as a document to be read out loud in class.

--As I was talking about my professor's skills with my spouse, we reminded ourselves that we have specialties too.  I could talk at great length about any number of poems or short stories, about several periods of literature, particularly British Literature of the Romantic and early Victorian period, and the Modernist time between the two world wars.

--I was sad about the passing of Jeff Galloway, who was a fierce advocate for less fierce running.  He's most famous for advising runners to take walking breaks.  He was also part of the group of runners in the 70's and 80's who went for Long, Slow Distance.  These are ideas that shaped me, that I return to again and again, the idea of meeting your body where you are right now, and that less hard exercise can actually be better.

--I had an idea for my 102 class, which I'll post below.  It took much less class time than I thought, but I decided I was O.K. with that.  I'll also use the assignment as one of the possibilities for Revised Writing 3--the in-class experience can be useful in several ways, so I'm happy about that.

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Making a Modern Case: The Characters from “Antigone”


In our current day, we have a variety of ways of getting information/viewpoints out to larger groups: a State of the Union address or other speeches, a news program interview, a Tik Tok video or other types of social media, a talk show, a podcast, a trial, a creative work (a song, a book, a television show).


In your small group, think about the characters in the play “Antigone” who have a point of view. If the play happened today, what would be the best way of making a case that each character was right and others were wrong.


Choose one character from the list below and choose one way of making a case for that character’s view. Create something that you will present to the class. We don’t have a lot of time, so it won’t be fully formed. You might decide to tell us what you would have created if you had time.


Antigone

Ismene (her sister)

King Creon

Haemon (Creon’s son and Antigone’s fiancé)

The people ruled by Creon