Last night, I took some books and the DVD of Testament back to the library. I liked seeing the movie again, but I don't want to pay for it.
I often take materials back to the library on a Sunday night, often at the same time (6:00-6:30); I know, because the same program is on NPR. Usually there's not much traffic. Last night was different.
I also noticed lots of people with lots of visitors: more cars in driveways than usual. I realized how many people must be having Super Bowl parties.
I came home and wrote this Facebook post:
"I will not be watching the Super Bowl. I don't like football. Most of my friends don't like football. I will not be going to a Super Bowl party. I haven't been invited to a Super Bowl party since high school, and that invitation was only because I was part of a church youth group, so we were all invited. Why do these musings leave me slightly sad and deeply aware of my outsider status?"
Let me be clear: I was not really hoping for a last minute invite to watch the Super Bowl. I don't want to spend hours that way.
To be honest, I was sad before I had this realization. I often feel a bit of Sunday Sadness as the week-end comes to a close. And when we've had a good week-end, it makes it even harder to face the Sunday sunset.