In 2022, I was no longer working for that school. I was driving back across several states, coming back to Florida from the onground intensive at Southern Seminary. I was already a certified spiritual director through their program, but I went back to take advantage of the education, to have a reunion with my small group, and to see a friend graduate from the program. Two weeks later I would turn around to drive back up to Arden to buy the house that I'm writing in this morning. So far, I have never regretted that purchase, which is not usual for me when it comes to housing or moves or jobs.
Or maybe it is becoming usual. I don't have regrets about the spiritual direction certificate or my MDiv. My main regret about my job at SMC is that I didn't have it sooner. I love this house in a way that I haven't loved any other house. Maybe my lack of regret is a pleasant part of being in late midlife.
I am tempted to tie these ideas back to Juneteenth, but I don't want to trivialize the holiday or the history. While regret can enslave us, it's a very different enslavement than other forces and humans that enslave.
And once free, perhaps they will figure out ways not only to free others, but to make sure that others aren't enslaved, either metaphorically or literally.
So on this Juneteenth, let us think about the captives who need our help to be set free. Let us also think about all the captivity narratives that hold us enslaved. Let us embrace liberation narratives. Let us envision what life would look like if all were truly free.
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